Every single experience you have is a stepping stone to your soul's evolution, especially the bad decisions. We learn through them. We can look at them as powerful lessons. This thingy called "life" is a classroom. You are always leveling up. Don't get caught up on degrading or punishing yourself for those challenges.

NO! Step back and recognize the gifts that got you through them. That last decision was your biggest teacher. Own it, learn it, let it go and move on. It IS easier said than done. But, what's the alternative? Self-hate? Self-sabotaging? What do you get out of staying in the victim mode... but attracting more of THAT!
I love you. Go love yourself with such immense intensity that all that nonsense doesn't even stick any longer. You ARE magnificent.

You've survived them ALL! Here you are, you badass human! You've got this.

I love you,

Millie