In Buddhism the word for “anxiety” (Duhhka) translates as “split” and also "suffering."

And isn’t that what anxiety feels like: a giant split or suffering in what you know and what you don’t know? When we try to control the experience of what we are feeling, the “split” happens and we feel anxious, edgy, uncertain, and scared. We close ourselves off, or split apart into fragments of the situation. Sometimes the situation isn't even in our lives but we create it in the state of anxiety. Most often, we actually dive into the anxiety by avoiding it. We truly do split off from the situation which makes it even more discomforting.

There is a lot going on energetically. And a lot going on in our personal lives that is forcing the shadows to come up and be addressed. This anxiety (and split) feels overwhelming. In not seeing, or accepting things for what they are at the moment, we cannot imagine how we will navigate into the unknown.

The thing is that there is nothing to obsess about. It feels like it. It is played out in our minds over and over until we are depressed, angry or sick. That “split” is an opportunity to sit with the discomfort and allow for things to come up and out. The anxiety gets worst when we try to control the outcome. But, when we allow for it to come up, we are moving with the flow of some powerful energy.

Clarity brings about connection. Connection to yourself, to Source, to the seamless experiences of what is righteous happening in your life. The mind is a massive creator and connector of energy and frequency. Whatever thought is put out there, the energy will connect. Be aware of how you entertain those thoughts and what emotions you are attaching to them.

So, allow for the “split.” Allow for it to happen without any expectations. What may seem like something bad may just be a new way of doing things that you never experienced before. You are safe. You are connected to the Universe. You are going to be better than okay.

Last night I attended an online breathwork session guided by the sweetest soul, Scott Stabile. If you don't follow him, you should go check him out. (https://www.facebook.com/ScottFrankStabile)

In that half hour of deep breathwork I had several epiphanies and releases. Eventually I left my body as I often do in meditation. He then led us into meditation for a few more minutes.

I slept hard. The breathwork released tension and uncertainty. Imagine that!? What we do normally all day long can help us release so much that is stored in our physical body, energy field and emotional body! The anxiety and split disappeared. I felt regenerated and restored.

Part of my intention for 2023 has been to go to the places I have been hesitant to explore in my physical and emotional bodies. I have begun to step into my power, my authentic truth, and my knowing by letting go of any expectations. The letting go of expectations also releases the anxiety. Breathing through it all helps. Meditation, for me, is a daily practice that helps me return to what I know to be true.

It's in the breath of life.

It's in the acceptance of who I am without having to judge myself harshly.

I accept folks for who they are, but it's really hard for me to embody that kindness to myself at times. I am hard on this woman who is doing the best she knows how. I have to be mindful of how incredible this journey is while continuing to evolve into the most amazing life.

Each breath is an opportunity to let go. It's an opportunity to invite Spirit. It's a delicious moment of awareness. Just sitting with your hands over your heart and stomach, brings awareness of the miracle of living.

Take time in the day to return to your breath, your surroundings, and feel the magic of who you are in this life. Get out of your own way. Be in this moment.

I love you.

Millie