I've watched the new movie on Netflix called The Adam Project with Ryan Reynolds, three times. Each time I grab a new message. There is a part in the movie that the young Adam sits with the future Adam and they have a heart-to-heart conversation. Young Adam says to Older Adam, "Things happen to you, to us. I think it's easier to be angry than it is to be sad. I guess when I get older I forget that there's a difference."

Brilliant! The dialogue between the two of them is beautiful. The movie is easy, fun, and mind-bending. I love movies about time travel.

This specific talk made me pause. Sometimes we do forget that sadness is kinder than holding on to anger. We hold memories and traumas in anger to fire up the emotional system and survive. We've been conditioned that being sad is weakness. That holding on to what breaks us is inhumane. That we cannot feel into the mournfulness of life experiences. We immediately want to numb it, pill it, forget it. Suppressing it turns into inconceivable loss and despair that is hidden. If we hold on to it tightly it all turns into passive anger while it deteriorates the physical body. It also affects our spiritual body. It’s hard to feel divinity when we are holding on to so much anger.

A few years ago I had a spiritual journey with a friend. He took me back to a moment in my childhood that I had forgotten. He guided me to release the hurt that had morphed into anger. That anger got stuffed in my cellular memories and was deteriorating my body. I had no clue this was happening. Releasing the anger, also released the sadness, the loss, and the grief. There was shame attached to it all. And without my acknowledgment the shame had also turned into guilt even though I was a little girl who was helpless at the time.

When things happen to us, in time the sadness turns into denial and anger. If we don't consciously deal with it, it can turn into another completely different emotion. What I've learned is that love heals the wounds of the past. Love heals the anger, the sadness, and the despair. Love forgives. It can help you forget. And when those wounds are healing there is freedom beyond anything we can experience. It’s pure divine mysticism!

Sending you so much love and peace,

Millie