I Am Exploring

I sat with my spirit guides today for a long while. I kept saying, "I am lost. Could you please guide me to where I am supposed to be, or what I am supposed to be doing next?"

The words came through, "You are not lost. You are exploring."

Lately "they" (the unseen world) keeps nudging me to paint. Over, and over, they keep telling me to "go paint."

I laugh and ask the questions again about what I am to be doing to prepare for all that is coming. They have showed me so much of the chaos. I have created my world smaller as to deal with the energy.

"Go paint! You will expand and open up!" They pop this in my head while I am in the shower, driving, or even trying to fall asleep.

I sit with the paints and canvases and nada. Not a single inspirational moment follows except frustration. I don't want to paint. It used to be a way to unwind decades ago. These days, it causes me anxiety. I dream of paintings and when I try to bring them to life, nothing comes out.

Now, if you were one of my guides, I suspect you would be frustrated with me. Not only do I receive messages in dreams, meditation, but I also hear them clearly. I get discouraged with their answers. This morning I sat and asked for something else. I don't want to paint right now. I feel lost in ways I cannot explain. My life is at ease right now. Things are moving slowly but I am safe and always taken care of.

I do feel like I am in the wilderness of the unknown, trekking to the next place.

I am exploring. Lately, I feel like an explorer. I keep reaching new heights of spirituality. I continue to make time to be alone and strengthen my spiritual muscles. I don't have a freaking clue what to do with all this exploration. Clearly, I am doing what I am supposed to be doing (other than painting). I am on this sacred journey of beautiful proportions. Nothing happens by mistake. There is a design to my life. Whenever I stop resisting, oh my goodness, the flow is immensely mystical to witness.

As a friend of mine said to me, "Thinking is stinking." I recognize that I have to stop wearing my ass as a hat and feel my way through all the divine messages coming through rather than analyzing them. There is little room for logic in this pilgrimage. The camino is exquisite.

SO, for today (and tomorrow) I am exploring the territory. I am creating a way to map out the things I desire. I am hiking my way through the forest of uncertainties while trusting. I am trusting more than ever. And, in that faith and conviction, magic is moving through me faster than ever.

I am not just exploring my surroundings. I AM painting a new life. Perhaps, this is what they mean.

As I write this, I am giddy with this new awareness. What are you creating in your life? Are you making time to listen to guidance? You are NOT lost. You are exploring the life around you. You are witnessing the energetic shift of the planet. You are participating in this expedition that entails a release of old programming and paradigms.

Be kind in your explorations. Stop the self-judgments and scrutiny. I love you!

Millie